Currently Listening Christmas on the Mountain: A Bluegrass Christmas By Various Artists see related

I think i will doubletime the whole xanga/myspace thing- there are people i love on each... hard decision.

I just got out of bed as my husband left for work... bringin' home the bacon... which I am in the process of trying to do.  Three resume's have gone out- two applications.  No calls or e-mails yet- I'm trying to figure out how to be persistent but not annoying as an adult job searcher.  In college/high school it was much simpler.  I went around town and filled out little applications for a job you must be trained for.  You were hired barely above minimum wage, dusted and rearranged things for a while and then were possibly prmoted to more important jobs- or not.  Now I must send out information- impressive information about myself and hope they catch the impressive parts- and then drive all around and drop by and try not to hit the notthereitschirstmas awkward time- or the notthereitsafterchristmasbeforenewyears awkwardness either. 

regardless- i have a job today- i'm babysitting.  the first time in 6months or so!  I miss my little girls from c'ville!  and its good bc- being around adorable babies that also do unadorable things makes me perfectly content with not starting a family for a while.  :) 

thats it for me here in h'ville-i'm in  job searching, babysitting, gift wrapping, married land.  we are going to jeff''s christmas in AR this year.  I'm nervous about it- i've seriously been praying about it for like a month now.  i love his fam- but i don't know them extremely well- some not at all... and christmas is my favorite holiday... christmas eve that is...  i just don't want to be homesick or awkward or frustrated... i think it'll be good... just nervous...

be blessed my friends!

Currently Listening See the Morning By Chris Tomlin jeff's rendition- holy is the Lord... see related

For some reason I approach xanga in almost the same way i approach God these days... When things are hard... but not too terribly busy... i'm here often.  I am listening to my husband lead student praise band practice... its raucous to say the least 

I am in the middle, or actually towards the end of compiling a non-useful student teaching portfolio.. to be presented monday night.. and then after an essay due Wednesday and a show to put up on friday... i am offically graduating!  wooohooo!  i am excited about it... four and a half good years at good ole tech-ster... i'm ready to move on... not from my world there necessarily... although really- most of my world there has moved on from me... except a few awesome friends...

i feel like i'm in the middle of strangers rihgt now.  i've got a new town, new church, new home, soon a new job- Lord willing, and even a new husband.  I'm working on the new friends thing.  There's a certain connection i'm looking for.  i've found it in several people at Tech and i miss it a lot.  i haven't seen it here yet.  jeff reminds me when i get sad about it that it took me almost four years to develop some of those awesome friendships.  but i want it NOW.  :) too bad rach.

another thing is this strange phenomenon of working in a church.  i'm working by default- some of the staff joke that they got a two for the price of one deal with me and my man.  haha.  its harder than i realized to do this.  i constantly question my motivation on coming to church, especially sunday mornings.  is it out of desire to worship and really learn about the Lord?  or is it out of obligation, it would look bad for the youth intern's wife to not be there.  its the first time in my life that i have been so aware of other's eyes- except for maybe middle school.  all middle schoolers think that the whole world is looking at them... at least i did- maybe i'm weird... probably.

k- i've stalled long enough- planning information records and reflection inflormation record are awaiting me.  i'm alomst done and i'm squeezing out the very last ounce of motivation i have for this degree to get all this tedium finished.  yeah.

blessings my friends...

Currently Listening I Have to Believe By Rita Springer see related

so, i have horribly negelcted xanga- and probably will do so again in the future... i tried to get into the whole myspace thing- but it is getting on my nerves- i feel overstimulated everytime i get on my website.. and i can't figure out how it works :)

hey so- i married... :)  six months later- we tied the knot.  it was beautiful wonderful awesome... and its over:) weddings are awesome to look back on, but the frenzy at the time can be wearing :) 

we're in h'ville for jeff's internship- i graduate in three weeks.  and i don't really want to be a teacher.  i am researching other stuff, but its a bit overwhelming- i am qualifying to do one thing- teach art.  and i don't want to teach in schools- the kids i want to help and the things i want to do are impossible in the school setting.  but at the same time- my husband is a part time intern and i need to find a job.. if it had benefits it would be even better... :) 

i guess i'm fighting growing up.  isn't that silly for a 22 year old married girl to say?  i want a job that will allow me to have a nose ring.  and pays well and uses my talents and appreciates me... is that too much to ask?  :)

anyways- sorry to whine.. i think i'm in the throes of the typical almost graduated college students' crisis... WHAT AM I GOING TO BE WHEN I GROW UP?!?!?!

any suggestions? :)

love you guys.

wow. so this has been a wonderful month(s).

most of my subscriptions are filled with my wonderful friends stressed out ness... i know i will be right there with you in a short amount of time- but for the present... i am at peace and calm in my life... so therefore i can say to you all.. perservere!  you are amazing and the Lord give you strength beyond what you can try to scrape up off the floor of your hectic lives... yeah.

i just finished a second painting in three days.  i love creating for no grade or specified project.  but simply because there is something in me that needs to spill out onto a canvas, piece of fabric, sheet of paper.. anything that will accept my meager efforts.  tonight it was a large hefty canvas.  saturday it was two yards of silk.  friday it was a little baby canvas, and thursday it was a piece of sketchbook paper.  praise the Lord for the gifts that come from Him!

yes.  i am getting married- october 7th.  at 2pm.. maybe 3.. in nashville... i want all who read to come.. if they're in the country that is.. :)  if not.. i will send pitturs...

the Lord has been showing me a lot about the Harvest lately.. and my role in that work... and mine and jeff's roles in it together in the very near future.. i am SO  excited about that. and finding out exactly what that looks like.. so yeah.. our "theme" is harvest.. lots of wheat... :)

okay so, on with the story...

he nonchalantly asked me on thursday night if i wanted to go hiking friday afternoon. he had told my friend to cancel plans with me for that night and my boss not to schedule me... so we went to cumberland trail state park and he told me he had a present for me... it was this coffee mug i had wanted but inside was a piece of paper that said "the list"... he then read me a list of 60 reasons of why he loves me. the 2nd to last one was that he loves me b/c i pursued a "purposeful friendship" with him 200 miles away.. and the first reason was that he loves me because he wants me to be his wife :) and then i said yes...

so i'm going to be a wife. :)

thats us after....

whoa... :)

hey guys... so...

i'm engaged...

i mean... we're engaged... Jeff and I...

:)

(pictures soon to follow :)  love you all!